Vertigo

I hate heights.  When I get over a certain distance, I have this irrational feeling like I should throw myself off, just fall forever or fly or something, and my stomach drops out and I become somewhat paralyzed.  Anyway, I have that same feeling of vertigo right now.  Everything was going so well a few weeks ago, before I got the flu, and its been spiraling downhill since then.  I'm in bad habits of self-allowance: my sleep pattern is still all fucked up, I'm still not working out again, and my work is suffering.  I can still fix everything, or rather stop from getting to the point where I have to fix it, but I have that same feeling of vertigo, that feeling of height that is already falling out from under me.